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Our Bodies are a Battleground

...No longer.

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Our Bodies are Battlegrounds...Peace is ahead.
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i will no longer be your slave

i will no longer be your Barbie doll

i will no longer be your piece of flesh

I am strong.

I am beautiful.

I am me.

ask me to be nothing more,

or else get the fuck out of my life.

my body is mine, i will not deny it...

never again...

NEVER LET THEM TELL YOU THAT YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH.



Dear Self,

This is a long overdue letter and for that I am sorry. In fact a lot of what
I want to say in this letter is about apologising. I never made a conscious
choice to hurt you. And yet I have in so many different ways. Strangely
enough my motivation for doing most of the abusive stuff I did to you was
trying to make me-us feel better. From as far back as I remember I never felt
completely normal or at least what I thought was normal. I would look at
other girls they just seemed better smarter and basically more together. I
realize now that we all struggle and probably all feel like everyone else is
more blessed with something that we don't have.


I am sorry for the way I have treated you. I am sorry for the things I have
said and done and for the complete lack of faith I've had in you at times . I
apologise for not regarding you in the way you deserve and most of all for not placing
our needs above all others. I have looked every where but to you for the love
I need. I have done things and acted in ways that are shameful all in the name
of earning someone else's love, when all the time there you were just waiting
for me to look inward.

I know you know that our journey will be a long one and it will be far from
easy. I am afraid that I will fail again and there is a voice that speaks
loudly warning me not to even try; that I am only asking for disappointment.
But you deserve a hundred more attempts at letting it be right and if that is
what it takes, well then a hundred more it will be. I know as you do that the j
ourney will be filled with steps forward followed by steps back, but that is ok.
Each day I will wake up with a renewed effort and a humble prayer for guidance.
I need to get back to you and to the spirit
that is truly me.

I know you forgive me and I am grateful for that. Today is a new day and with
your love and support I will take those small but very important steps
forward. I really love you, me
courtesy of a pass-along by murasaki_koneko


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